Moments of Melancholy: Why I Would Never Want to Take My Childless for a Day
Have you ever wished your kids didn't exist even for a fleeting moment? I can understand the urge, as it has crossed my mind a few times. However, the reality of parenthood is often filled with kindness, resilience, and joy. Here, I share my heartfelt journey and experiences as a parent, in hopes that others might find something to relate to.
Why I Wouldn't Want 24 Hours Without My Child
I can vividly remember sitting under our dining table at a young age, as young as 6 years old, and dreaming of having babies. I was always fascinated by babies, and I never outgrew that fascination. When my first child was finally born, it was a miraculous moment that filled my heart with such joy that it never wavered. Even in the midst of the daily battles and struggles, the thought of wanting my child gone for even 24 hours is completely unfathomable to me.
The Journey of Parenting a Child with Autism
My only child was a surprise, born a mere seven months after I was told I might never be a mother. Every morning, my heart sings with excitement as I anticipate the day that lies ahead. With each passing day, I get to watch my child grow and explore the world around him. Even when the news of his severe autism came, leaving me to face a future where he might never learn to speak or mature beyond an infant's level, I was motivated to help him achieve the best life possible.
Embracing the Challenges of Life
Over the past 13 years, every experience my child has gone through has been a heart-wrenching journey. I have faced numerous challenges, some of which seem insurmountable, but the strength of my love for him has never faded. Instead, it grows stronger with each struggle. He is a bright child brimming with love and compassion. He may have struggled to speak his first words at 8, but he has overcome it and continues to surprise me with his interests in reading, art, and even physics.
A Reflection of Selfless Love
I feel an overwhelming sense of pride and joy at every step of his growth. He chose me as his momma, and his decision to accept me as his mother is a badge of honor I wear proudly. Parenting a child with autism may come with its fair share of challenges, but the love and connection we share are beyond measure. In the face of adversity, it is the selfless love and unwavering commitment that keep us going. My journey is not without tears, but it is also filled with moments of joy and triumph that make every struggle worthwhile.
So, the next time you find yourself longing for a break or wishing your children away, remember that what you're feeling is a mix of love, care, and dedication. Your children are unique and special, and their presence in your life is a precious gift.